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Just thought I'd do a little catch up session.
Strange how so much communication now is online. I miss talking on the phone, although now, thanks to msn and email etc. I am now crap at talking on the phone. I heart the electronic age. Soon we won't be able to talk at all. We will all type things, print them out and pass them round the room, using stupid little words and sayings like "did u hear tht I gt the jb?" "Wow! U r a lgnd." I mean who needs vowels anyhow?
I am feeing in a rantish mood, but sort of in a celebratory one too, which is weird and confusing.
Several great things have happened over the past week. I learnt that I got into Grad. school, which means I will be training here next year, to be a primary teacher. I also found out that I passed by DipABRSM, and quite well too apparently. I haven't got the piece of paper with my results, but the lady from the Royal Schools of Music Office rang and the conversation went something like this:
Mrs. Tyler: "Hello. We'd like you to perform in the High Achievers concert on Dec. 13th." (Only those who get distinction - the highest level of achievement - get to perform at this)
Me: "Um. *thinks: whatwhatwhatwhatwhat?* I haven't got my results yet."
Mrs. T: "Well we have and we'd like you to perform."
Me: "Wow. *speechless* (for once) I guess I must have done alright then."
Mrs. T: "Well, *being careful not to say too much before I recieve official notification* yes."
Me: "Oh. *silence* I'd be honoured to perform. Wow."
Mrs. T: "So you will be there? That's good because you've won an award too dear."
Me: "Yes definately. Thanks very much!"
And etcetera. Anyway. I got off the phone, burst into tears and told my mum, who also burst into tears. I have had a real battle over performance anxiety and I didn't really think I could do it. (See "Cry, Weep Sob...Sook" - September) I was just hoping to pass. This is so much more than I ever thought I could achieve. And to be honest, I still don't believe it's true. For some reason - honestly - I feel like someone is playing a joke on me. I think I will only believe it when I get the report, hopefully tomorrow.
I also went to a conference at church on Friday and Saturday where an amazing preacher, Vicky d'Orazio was speaking. Amazing lady.
I had the most amazing God-time, and feel so challenged.
Awesome.
And Doug got back too which is great. Looking foward to summer I think and to next year, getting my teeth into something practical. I do feel though that I need to make some new years resolutions. I always try to think about these really carefully, because although it's kind of a dumb idea, I think it can be a useful time to write down some goals.
I don't mind sharing them as I think it is also important to be accountable.
So my resolutions so far are:
1. Purity
2. Humility
3. Growing in my relationship with God.
4. Making time for my friends.
The last two are really important for me. I am so busy with all the little things, that I often forget to make time for the important ones and the results are not always good. So I really want to work on that.
Cool. Well I'm done for tonight. I'm exhausted so I think I will go to bed and read a book.
Night.
